life

I am going through some really tough stuff in my life right now. I am dealing with a lot of hurt and a lot of loss. The nights seem to last forever and mind is forever spinning. I have to admit I have been really quite self absorbed this past week. Only thinking about my problems and trying to deal with a lot of heartache.

Last night Joel and I spent the night downtown in a fabulous 4 star hotel and spent the morning at Starbucks and shopping a bit on Robson. I love the city. I love how I could just get lost there. So many different people, each with their own incredible stories. As we were heading home, we drove through East Hastings. Wow, what an eye opener. We saw numerous homeless people, prostitutes, and a handful of police and ambulances. People who were hungary, lonely, and without shelter. It was tragic to see. How easy it is for me to be stuck in my own little world, with what seems like such hopeless situations. It made me realize that this world is so much bigger than me. That there are so many people out there who have no hope and no love. My heart ached. It ached for them. There is so much need, but really no one to help them. I am thankful for my home, my health, and my family. Although I am struggling with a huge loss right now, I am still holding on to hope. Hold your loved ones tonight.

Okay, so being constantly inspired, artsy, and creative is impossible, maybe not for everyone, but it is for me. And it is sooo frustrating! So what do I usually do? First I stalk all my favourite blogs, then I flip through countless magazines, and then I scour my photography boards. I went through this struggle today, and then I turned on some music. I love music, it can change my mood so quickly. It can make me super happy and energetic (and creative) or it can also make me sad, thoughtful and leave me reminiscing of what I once had. So I'm listening to this great song by Colbie Callait when I remember how much I loved her first music video "Bubbly." So I went onto You Tube, found the video for Falling For You and fell in love with it. So I thought I would share it, I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

Falling For You video

Here I am again

It has been many months since my last post. I just spent the last half hour putting one together, and then realized I posted it to the wrong blog. Now I'm getting an "error" sign.

My head is spinning right now. Too many thoughts and emotions going on. I will be back to blog later, I promise.